crap deluxe

Ok, this is human, right ? If we don't have any bigger problems, we create ourselves some. I tried to post a review of the Kettcar concert (if it's a german band, it's not really reasonable to post it on the english blog. The words lose their meaning and it's just not ... I dunno. It doesn't work.) but I didn't.
But I decided that blogigo sucks. It doesn't resize my posted pictures, the design mode doesn't work and I just don't think we'll be friends. I deleted my account. So don't waste your time clicking on my german blog. I'll think about a new one.
That's no big thing, you might think but for me it is.
Maybe it's because I just came home from a wedding (which ALWAYS makes me sentimental) and I had nothing else to do than to worry about this fucking blog problem.

I noticed that I swear a lot lately. Even on our gig yesterday. Does this mean something ? Hmmm....

But anyway : Here's a picture of the gig. A picture says more than 1000 words. Needless to say it was one of the best live performances I've ever seen.



I'll be away for 3 weeks now. And I don't think I'll be online for very long if I'm home on the weekends. So : If you feel like talking to me, simply dial my mobile number.

"...und du kannst ja gehen...und wir, wir sagen dir dann wie's war.." - Kettcar . volle distanz

luxurous greetings
murmel

PS : The typos come back. I should sleep more. Definetely.

Ja, ja...

I'm a crazy fool who has nothing else to do than to blog about every single fucking detail in my miserable life. But I've got a new blog. In German again. I miss writing my daily crap in my mother tongue.
If you're curious, attending a german lesson or just want to look over for the content : Click at killerkiwi - zwischen tarantino und fruchtsaft -> still in the works.

Adios !

murmel

rozenbottels and running on dry

--> ani di franco . untouchable face (live)

This day was relaxing in general. We had very few kids to look after and because of the heat nobody could get outside. So we sat down and I spent a round of ice tea for everybody.
Out of boredom we played around with the dutch ingredients and the words that are said there. The kids favourite word was "rozenbottel", because it sounds weird and it's fun to speak. If I'd translate it to it's not that extraordinary and funny anymore, so : Look for the translation yourself ! :p

Not only the weather makes me kinda feel down. We postponed the recording session to tonight at 7pm and I still don't have any ideas. I dunno what to write about anyway.

And listening to Ani and her genius lyrics doesn't lift my self-concience at all.

I should go and see what's gonna come out.

they told you your music could reach millions
the choice was up to you
you told me they always pay for lunch
and they believe in what i do
and i wonder if you'll miss your old friends
once you've proven what you're worth
and i wonder when you're a big star
will you miss the earth
and i know you always, always want more
i know you, you'll never be done

because everyone is a fucking napoleon
everyone is a fucking napoleon

ani difranco . napoleon

murmel

edit : I wrote a song during the recording session. It's called "running on dry".

shoegazing

It's no secret that Germany is suffering under the mercyless heat that's coming over the country. There have been severeal injured and collapsed people, one dead girl in Bavaria (breakdown within a 75m run) and of course fans are sold-out. So : What else to do these days than sitting in the shade with a cool, non-alcoholic drink and a good book ? ? ?

BUT you may all have a mother. And you know what mothers like to do. They think you're broke and generally unable to pick the right shoes and pants for yourself. So did my mom. She kicked me out of bed at 9am (after a short night, because I worked overtime and came home at 11pm instead of 5.30pm!!!) and decided to drag me to the city. So we ended up there and she always picked on me, because "I AM GRUMPY". Of course I AM ! I'm no fan of running around and look for shoes and pants when it's 35 ° C (95°F!!) outside. So this was basically my first half of the day.

And I plan to lie in the shade. Not more and not less. Watch out MOM ! *swings a full bottle of juice*

murmel

follow the fake rainbow bikini !

!!!!

Don't ask why. There's no real reason. I'm just melting away and found another stunning piece of randomness in my all-day life which I wanted to share with you.

murmel

randomness

Things I noticed. Again !

1. I've had some heavy rotation LPs these days



and



2. I stumbled through the day : No single situation without me getting hurt somewhere. Maybe it's the weariness.

3. I passed my exams with a 1 (= A) in German and a 2 (=B) in Pedagogics. I thought I was very bad, but life sometimes proves that black is white.

4. There are only 2 weeks left until I'm finished at my working place. The kids were really sad today when I told them. I'm sorry for them, too but not for my working mates. Can't even call them "mates".

5. I have holidays from 28th of July until 13th of September. Two days later, because THE POPE is coming to Bavaria. Never thought I'd enjoy the fact that he's here. But hey : 2 days more for me.

6. Realised that I'm working 3 weeks in August. Urgh. But money makes the world go round.

7. Discovered a cool band from Texas. Bon Terra. I looove their song "underdog" ! :D
Check them out at myspace (www.myspace.com/bonterrarocks) and on their homepage (www.bonterratheband.com) !

8. I'm getting along with html.

9. Sascha and I will start recording next week. Yihaa !

10. I miss myself.

Only bored people do surveys !

So do I. And I'm not ashamed of it. Sorry for stealing it, Picca. I hope you'll be interested in my answers anyway.

Put your music player on shuffle
Post the first 40 songs that come up. You can repeat artists if you want. Then answer the questions.

SONGS
1. Beatsteaks . filter
2. cold . suffocate
3. morrissey . first of the gang to die
4. sarah bettens . busy (live)
5. snow patrol . chasing cars
6. sarah bettens . stay (acoustic)
7. ani DiFranco . napoleon (live)
8. gorillaz . don't get lost in heaven
9. k's choice . winners (live)
10. woodface . good morning hope (live)
11. sarah bettens . not insane
12. jason mraz . clockwatching
13. we are scientists . nobody move, nobody get hurt
14. morcheeba . what new york couples fight about
15. foo fighters . razor
16. sarah bettens . not an addict (live)
17. cat stevens . the wind
18. groove armada . think twice
19. tool . faaip de ooaid
20. the raconteurs . intimate secretary
21. k's choice . another year (live from Tel-Aviv)
22. cold . wasted years
23. kettcar . im taxi weinen
24. gorillaz . demon days
25. nirvana . pennyroyal tea (unplugged)
26. bangles . manic monday
27. jimmy eat world . kill
28. sheryl crow . all I wanna do
29. 12 stones . let go
30. john butler trio . damned to hell
31. ani difranco . 32 flavours
32. ani difranco . going down
33. melissa ferrick . then so it is
34. wir sind helden . rüssel an schwanz
35. elliott smith . lets get lost
36. evanescence . hello
37. del amitri . sleep instead of teardrops
38. ani difranco . fire door (live)
39. eva cassidy . time after time
40. nick drake . black mountain

QUESTIONS:
1. Which song do you prefer, #1 or #40?
Hmm, I guess I'll put a tie in here. Both artists have good songs and as I don't like this one from Nick Drake not THAT much it's a tie.

2. Have you ever listened to #12 continuously on repeat?
Honestly, I never listened to it before. I just put it on my PC and so it popped up.

3. What album is #26 from?
Gosh, I dunno. It's the Bangles. I'm no hardcore fan, I just like some songs.

4. What do you think about the artist who did #15?
One of the last good, ass-kicking and credible bands alive. And the funny thing is I thought for YEARS that the drummer of Nirvana had a brother who plays guitar in the foo fighters. ;)

5. Is #19 one of your favorite songs?
Nopes. I like other songs from them.

6. Who does #38 remind you of?
It reminds me of Mel, because she gave me some Ani stuff and made me fall in love with her music again after I listened to her before and didn't get why all people love her so much.

7. Does #20 have better lyrics or music?
Again a song I didn't listen to yet. So it's not possible to say.

8. Do any of your friends like #3?
Katharina loves it and she gave it to me. :)

9. Is #33 from a movie soundtrack?
Nopes, but it's off the soundtrack of my life. Very meaningful song.

10. Is #18 overplayed on the radio?
Definetely not. Still it's a poppy and very good song.

11. What does #21 remind you of?
Me, walking around my flat when listening to the album it the first time and the feeling of stumbling over some extraordinary piece of music.

12. Which song do you prefer, #5 or #22?
I like both, because the transported feeling is quite the same. Strange, but true.

13. What album is #17 from?
Hmmm, it's on the "almost famous" o.s.t., but I guess it's from one of Stevens early LPs. Dunno.

14. When did you first hear #39?
Hmmm, that's hard to say. But it's one of my favourites of all time.

16. What genre is #8?
I'd say pop/trip-hop

17. Do any of your friends like #14?
I dunno. Mel probably does, because I got the LP from her.

18. What color does #4 remind you of?
It's not a color, it's more a vague veil of sunlight, mixed with clouds.

19. Have you ever blasted #11 on your stereo?
Hell yeah ! It's an ass-kicking song !

20. What genre is #37?
Sophisticated Pop.

21. Can you play #13 on any instrument?
Probably on guitar, but haven't tried yet(good idea, btw. ;) ).

22. What is your favorite line from #30?
Hmm, I think it's an instrumental. But instrumentals are sometimes even better than too much lyrics.

23. What is your favorite lyric from #23?
"..das gegenteil von gut ist gut gemeint
in empfindsamkeit vereint. hier. befindlichkeitsfixierter aufstand.."

24. Would you recommend #24 to your friends?
Yup, but I guess it'd have to be a friend who likes that kind of music.

25. Is #2 a good song to dance to?
Not really. It's melancholic. Maybe just a little elegy in squares or smth. like that.

26. Do you ever hear #16 on the radio?
Not on german radio cause they fucking dunno what they miss when they don't play her songs.

27. Is #32 more of a “nighttime” or “daytime” song?
Nighttime.

28. Does #36 have any special meaning to you?
Yes, it helped me dealing with lots of stuff. But this is getting personal, so I'll cut it at this point.

29. Do any of your friends like #31?
Yesh, Mel looooves it. ^^

30. Is #25 a fast or slow song?
It's mellow and slow.

31. Is #35 a happy or sad song?
Hmm, haven't listened to it precise enough to say it. But Elliott Smith is dead, so everything he sings is basically sad. A big loss. I love his songs.

32. What is one of your favorite lyrics from #9?
"if I could put you in a frame I'd draw you smiling."

33. Is #34 better to listen to alone or with friends?
With friends

34. When did you first hear #27?
A few years ago, I guess.

35. Name 3 other songs by the artist who did #29?
only know "broken" (which is also superb, btw) of them.

36. Do you know all the words to #6?
Of course! :)

37. Does #28 have better lyrics or music?
Better music definetely. The lyrics are pretty plain.

38. What album is #10 from?
From the also entitled "good morning hope" LP. Great album !

I did it all for one cookie !

Today was a wild mixture of working outside, building houses for the kiddies to play in and putting aaall that stuff afterwards online, e.g. transport it from the camera onto the PC AND redesigning my myspace site (if you're curious, it's still : http://www.myspace.com/murmel86). While encoding my video, I got bored and drew a little cartoon. Don't expect Picassos - it was just a little time by myself with weird thoughts in my head and a pencil in my hand. It's about a girl. Today, she was born and caught my attention immediately - cause she's so full of randomness. I hope you can read it.

Ladies and Gents, make way for:

Little rock chick !



click to enlarge

busy greetings
murmel

who needs a story if you have a song ?

Hot town, summer in the city...

even in the morning you could see the stirring heat over the streets and the city - it's gonna be a hot day and no one knows where our school project leads us to

back of my neck getting dirty and gritty

after finding out that we were asked to redesign a playground for kids from the age 0-3 years we started and after a short while I had little pieces of wood everywhere on my body, especially my neck itched so hard it drove me nuts - but it's all for the kiddies, so what ?

been down, isn't it a pity ?

it's early noon when I started to feel my bones, and they didn't feel good. Working in the garden, digging out holes, sawing holes in wooden houses and pressing boards against screws is not really the healthiest activity in the sticky summer sun. But hey, another good point : I get muscles and another tan ! Yihaa !

doesn't seem to be a shadow on the city

who cares about the heat? we drove in a climated car ! HAHA ! And this day was fun. This day was about DOING SOMETHING and not sitting around to write off stuff from the chalk board.

And action !

murmel

A song and many thoughts

They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway

Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway

They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway

And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway

goo goo dolls . acoustic #3

I listened to it like five times in a row to get the whole meaning, but some songs dig in a deepness you never looked in. You never allowed yourself to look in. Interesting how one song can fit so good.

acoustic greetings
murmel

one finger on the sun...

..there it is.



The official, first done song of the record. Not very special designed, but it doesn't need to be anyway. Sascha brought it to me after remastering and singing a new second voice on it.
Not only a nice thing because it's delivered on time to the guy who puts it on a local newcomer sampler - Sascha and I were able to talk. About silent revolution, the music, the women and life in general. It's always a very interesting share of thoughts and not rarely we laugh out loud at the end of it because we're soo right about it all.
And that's what made me realise what life is all about : Sharing your feelings. Now matter how you do it, just do so. Even if it's hard to say you're sorry, you're happy or sad. Feelings are the strongest signs of living. And if you find out one day, you're feelings are gone - you're probably lifeless then.

"Still waitin' for the day you open up and see
how beautiful this world can be
when you appreciate the beauty in itself
and be yourself someday..."

contemplative greetings
murmel

Germany by car and a journey to myself

bon terra . definitely

After a little chillout saturday I had a date today with three guys 40 kilometers away from my place. They're trying to put a band together and looked for a singer/guitarist. So, I accepted the invitation and drove to their place.
Not that I had to drive by memory and intuition, the journey made me also realise how many beautiful corners Germany actually has. The sun was shining, the sky was drenched in blue : What else do you need ?
I listened to the "graduated fool" LP by Anouk whilst driving and became contemplative about everything that's going on so far. Confronted with myself, all alone in the car and many roads ahead I questioned my relation to beloved people, my efforts to keep up my education and my musical obsession. I mean, honestly that's all I can do well. I've never been good at school or in my job. But just give me a guitar and a mic and I sing and play for my life. This is my life.

At least I was able to do this now. I arrived late but the guys took it with a smile and lead me into the basement where everything was build up already. The drummer was a bit late, so we talked about the "Southside Festival" because the guitarist has been there also. After the drummer arrived, we rehearsed a bit. I played a song of mine to them and within 1 hour the song was finished. I tell you, it's a kick-ass song and it sums everything up that has happened in my life over the last years. Working title :

"anybodys shoulder"

I almost forgot how it feels to play with a full band and it was huge fun ! :) The guys are very talented and determined. Two of the things you should call your own if you want to make it one day.
So, this was a very nice way of ending the weekend.
And being away from home and your room is good. It refreshed the heart and mind. And mine definitely needed a little bit of fresh air.

have a nice end of the weekend
murmel