tiny stones break the wall

I did something funny when trying out www.songtapper.com .
You can tap there the beat of a song you dunno the title anymore and then it suggests you a song with the lyrics. I tapped a beat I have in my head for years, totally aware of that it appears in many of my favourite songs, just curious to find out what it brings up.

Within some not worth noticing suggestions it brought up :

soundgarden .:. the day I tried to live

I woke the same as any other day
Except a voice was in my head
It said seize the day, pull the trigger
Drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads

The day I tried to live
I stole a thousand beggar’s change
And gave it to the rich

The day I tried to win
I dangled from the power lines
And let the martyrs stretch
Singing

One more time around might do it
One more time around might make it
One more time around might do it
One more time around
The day I tried to live

Words you say never seem
To live up to the ones inside your head
The lives we make never seem
To ever get us anywhere but dead

The day I tried to live
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

I woke the same as any other day you know
I should have stayed in bed

The day I tried to win
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

And I learned that I was a liar
Just like you

Harsh, but totally the feeling I have inside right now. Really strange. I mean, I know the band but never heard the song. But it feels more true than anything people said or did to me in the last weeks. And THAT means something.

I'm split inside. Somehow I need a cut from EVERYONE to find myself within all the loudness of the world. On the other hand I can't make it alone and I miss some people really bad.

And one question that keeps roaring in my head :

Should this be everything ?

confused and totally wired
murmel